This song was heavily influenced by "The Double" by Fyodor Dostoyevsky.
I wrote this song about a certain belief I have about the afterlife.
I believe that on the day you are to move on to the after, you meet the person you could've been in this life versus the person that you actually are. Then there is this internal conflict within yourself, if you're at peace with who you've become.
Existentialism.
You vs. who you could've been.
At the end of the line, I'd like to believe I would meet my double, as we would look at each other as one in the same.
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lyrics
I’m seeing double, one is I and the other another guy
but fear resents him, the other version of I
A sheep amongst the hounds, within malicious gaze
to atone for existing? feeling sorry, but why?
prejudice layers skin, what hides outside from what’s within
Let the blade sink slowly in, peeling at who I am
I’ll vouch my own existence it’d be written in blood
rather than to receive a right to exist
Gemini Suicide
kill me once, or kill me twice
You wake up what for? You wake up what for?
You wake up to unknown ceilings.
Ambiguity kills me, enter the void, with an unaligned frequency
insecure feelings, hiding who you are?
Shape-shifting personas, taciturn whisper disputes
to atone for existing? feeling sorry, but why?
Prejudice layers skin, what hides outside from what’s within
Let the blade sink slowly in, peeling at who I am
I’ll vouch my own existence, It’d be written in blood
rather than receive a right to exist.
Gemini Suicide
Kill me once, or kill me twice
You wake up what for, you wake up what for?
You wake up to unknown feelings.
Take a look in the mirror
Question is this who you’re supposed to be?
A figure of determination, or someone recluse of that nature?
Who’ll fight indignation from what society thinks?
to atone for existing? Feeling sorry, but why?
Prejudice layers skin, what hides outside from what’s within
let the blade sink slowly in, peeling at who I am
I’ll vouch my own existence, it’d be written in blood
rather than receive a right to exist
Gemini...
You wake up what for, you wake up what for?
You wake up to, to new found meaning.
credits
from PEAKS,
released May 12, 2019
Produced by Dan Byers - Rock Garden Studios
Lyrics by Kyle Duey
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